Skip to main content

Be Careful What You Pray For

Do you have a fear that grips your heart?

Is there something you fear at work?

Do you pray with anxiousness and fear? 

I want to share a few of my experiences and what God taught me through them.

Last year when Haden had his surgery, and my mom took a leave of absence from work to be with him. She was and still is the director of the learning center we work at. I am the assistant director. I had some support from other directors during her absence, but there were plenty of days where I was running the campus and calling the shots. I was cowardly going into the first work week without my mom. I lacked confidence, I cared too much what people thought of me in vain ways such as; pretending I had all the answers to everyone's problems, and showing no fear or emotion other than a smile.

God had quite a bit to teach me.

I prayed very hard that I would not have to deal with specific issues during the time that my mom was gone. I was not willing to pray that God would just give me the grace to go through whatever He allowed. There was certain situations that I didn't feel fit to handle or people that I felt would not respect me as the director due to my age and "lack of experience".

God has a funny way of revealing my lack of trust in Him by bringing circumstances my way that pull to surface the truth. The truth that I am not trusting the Lord as I should... I am not trusting God with all my heart.

I am telling you that everything I prayed about in fear... happened. I had to deal with every issue that I did not want to experience and more! You would laugh real hard if you knew all the issues that came up. Seriously, some of it was comical. Some was not. I cried in front of a parent. I cried in front of my coworkers. God was teaching me how to be real. To be humble. To know I am not alone. To lean completely on Him. To fear no one, but God and God alone.

Everything that I had asked God to keep from happening... happened. I didn't recognize it then, but I was praying in fear. I was praying in anxiousness about those things.

God had taught me some amazing truths while my mom was absent. Whatever God brings me to... He will bring me through!

He allowed everything to happen so that I could see that HE can bring me through any hardship that comes my way.

God is still working on me, but I am glad that God has taught me how to pray when it comes to things I don't look forward to. There are things in my life that I would love to avoid, but I try to ask God for the grace to get through it instead of asking in fear for God to take it away. Sometimes, God does remove the issue or the issue never arises. It really comes down to if you are trusting God or not. If the fear has a grip on you. Faith and fear can not dwell in the same place.

God wants to be glorified through my life, and yours. You and I can not glorify God if we don't allow ourselves to be put through situations that we can't handle on our own. God teaches us to pray "thy will be done". God brings us through hardships and trials to teach us that we can trust Him with anything that is thrown at us.

There is something so beautiful of Jesus' prayer in the garden of Gethsemane.

 "Thy will be done..."

Jesus knew what was ahead. He still chose the cross. He bore the sins of the whole world so that we could have a way into heaven. Have you received Jesus as your Lord and Saviour? His blood can cleanse you of ALL your sin! All you have to do is ask. Click here to read more about making heaven your home.

Trust God with your life. Give Him everything. You can trust Him!

This is my favorite passage of scripture:

  Proverbs 3:5-6 "Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.
 In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths."


To God be the Glory,
Mackenzie 

Philippians 3:10
"That I may know him, and the power of his resurrection, and the fellowship of his sufferings, being made conformable unto his death"

Comments

Popular posts from this blog

The Doctor's Song: Part Two

It's cold, the TV is playing a sermon from a church, its about 5am Sunday morning. I am trying to catch up with some sleep in a dark family room after a night of lying next to Haden as he tossed and turned with wires attached to his brain for seizure readings that entire week. My mom had gone through a week of making sure that he didn't turn too much, and my dad would drive out after full hours of work to be there to support my mom at all the times he could. I was able to get a little sleep that morning, but my mom called saying that I needed to get back to the room. Haden wasn't being very responsive and he seemed extremely lethargic. They took us down swiftly to receive a Brain Scan to see if there was any bleeding(that's the biggest concern since they had a grid on his brain). We waited. My dad was on his way. The news came. They told us that there was some bleeding going on. At this point we didn't know how bad. My mom wanting more answer's, but also tryin...

VBS 2016

Vacation Bible School was definitely a lot of fun with the theme Hailey chose. She wanted to do a "Super Hero" theme with a city feel atmosphere. It was so cute and creative with everything Hailey put together. Her talents keep me completely impressed all the time! I am so thankful she took charge of decorations, skit videos, and flyers. She did a far greater job than I would have ever did. It is so exciting to see how my siblings are discovering, growing, and forming their talents God has given them and using them for God. It's a blessing. A real joy.      My brother, Noah(who has been called to preach), was our speaker for VBS and he did a great job. His humbleness was there. He asked people to pray that God would use each message for each night. His sermons spoke to my heart. Noah spoke on prayer, the bible, and used our theme verse(Matthew  5:16 ) for the last night and it was great!  On the note of those that have helped..... My best friend, Priscilla and m...

The Right Man

Psalm 107: 8 Oh that men would praise the Lord for his goodness, and for his wonderful works to the children of men! The Right Man.    The above note was the first promise I made to God before I knew how to spell "marry" or correctly apply proper grammar. I wrote this in my white King James Bible that I had received for Christmas. I had no idea at that time of the struggle of waiting and enduring temptations as a young single girl. I always assumed I would meet the "right man" during my teen years or the bible college years and get married in my early 20s. Those days passed with many times that I would hope and pray only for God to close the door as I asked The LORD if the guy wasn't the right one to shut it tight. Sometimes, I would foolishly try and reopen doors that God had closed. Sometimes, my fingers got smashed as God shut the door. Other times, I would be relieved that God had clarified that certain guys were not the ones. I'd always pray and seek th...