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A Matter Of The Heart

Sometimes I wonder how God can have so much patience for a sinner like me! Praise God, He didn't give up on me! 

Last year I recently went through a time of being "backslid'n at heart". I was listening to worldly music, letting my thought life run rapid, and not spending the time I needed with Jesus. I really put some verses in the bible into action. 

"Galatians 6:7 Be not deceived; God is not mocked: for whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap.
8 For he that soweth to his flesh shall of the flesh reap corruption; but he that soweth to the Spirit shall of the Spirit reap life everlasting."


During this specific time in my life I was definitely sowing to the flesh. The most scary part was when I started reaping. Most every sin I was committing was inside my heart but with me being so far from God, it was coming closer to becoming an outward rebellion. Deep down I knew how deep I was..... I just didn't care.  One Sunday, my grandpa preached on how each and everyone of us are naked before God. In other words, God see's everything. During most of the sermon I was so hard hearted. I started thinking about how God sees everything and with being so far from God, I didn't care. It started to concern me how much I didn't care. I didn't care about church, people, family, or God.(that's a very scary place to be) All I cared about was what I wanted and what I wanted to experience in life.

Proverbs 14:14 The backslider in heart shall be filled with his own ways: and a good man shall be satisfied from himself.

That night I asked God to intervene. I was honest with God(and myself) and told Him I didn't care and I needed Him to change my heart towards Him. I realized within my own power I can't and won't have a desire to love and serve Him. Especially with all the flesh(world) I was sowing in my life. The very next day I started sowing to the spirit. A prayer life was established(which I never really had established before in my life). Talking to Jesus makes all the difference! Telling others about Jesus was a priority. I turned on Christian music instead of secular. Listening to music about your relationship with Christ and life as a christian is far more uplifting than that secular music on temporal things that are so vain. I made small steps toward God and He made giant steps towards me! 

James 4:8 Draw nigh to God, and he will draw nigh to you. Cleanse your hands, ye sinners; and purify your hearts, ye double minded.

Reaping the Spirit. 

How true James 4:8 is! God is so good to me! I didn't deserve salvation let alone another chance to have a close relationship with Him! My friends, we receive so much of the world in our day to day lives. It is impossible to be sowing too much spirit! I know I need as much of Jesus as I can get! The most precious relationship you can ever have in this life is with Jesus! If you don't know Jesus please accept Him today! You will NEVER regret it. 

     From my heart to yours, 
                                                     Kenzie 

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  1. UnknownMarch 12, 2014 at 11:07 AM

    Good girl, Kenzie! I'm proud of you. It's a difficult step to take, and have been many times I've also come to God admitting that "i don't wanna, You're going to have to make me!" But just acknowledging God makes all the difference, and what a relief to walk with him again. Now you have a job encouraging your sibligs!

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