Is what I have real?

Is this real? Is my relationship with Jesus truly there? Why are people giving up on God? If they gave up, should I?

These were questions and concerns I have been asking myself recently, due to people in my christian realm falling in sin or just simply going a different route in life that completely defies their walk(relationship) with Jesus. It caused me to question if my relationship was real. If there really is a point to it all? It started to ware on me. People I love dearly and considered a spiritual foundation and role model in my life had fallen. Who wouldn't question ones self? To be honest, I became a little lethargic spiritually. I would read my bible in the morning, not really receiving anything from it, my prayer life was very poor as well. Finally, one day I was on one of my hikes(I'm getting teary eyed just writing this) and I just broke down crying and silently praying asking if everything is real. I was probably on my second hill of the hike when a still small voice in my head told me; "why are you leaning on others in this relationship you have with me?" "Didn't I die on the cross so your relationship wouldn't have to be through man?". I was instantly hit with conviction. Shame on me for leaning on others in this christian walk. I truly experienced the reason why the teaching and preaching I would hear in church and sunday school on why our foundation and role model needs to be Jesus. Humans fail, Christians fall, No one is perfect! Last year I came to the conclusion that this relationship needs to be founded on Jesus Christ, My Rock, My Salvation, My Fortress, and My Deliverer. If someone I know and looked up to, has fallen, I'll pray for them but my relationship needs to be straight up to heaven not through anyone. My relationship is founded on, Jesus Christ, He has NEVER failed me. By God's Grace, I pray I don't fall so deep that my life denies I ever knew Jesus. Christian, make sure your relationship is not altered because someone in your life has fallen.

With Love,

Mackenzie Lea

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